I am surprisingly very calm. I don't even care anymore, just get me on the plane please so I can just forget all my troubles and live a new life for a while. Half of me doesn't even want to pack my bag, just get on the plane. It's hard to fathom the thought that in three days my life will be different. Things change so quickly. Looking back just a year ago, I was a completely different person. The people that have come and go in my life, my goals, my beliefs, it's amazing how everything is so different in just a year. I think I'm in transition mode right now. I've been way too excited to leave for Spain for the past couple of months and now, I feel like I'm trying to distance myself, put myself in a new frame of mind to cope with being away for so long, even though it's not that long, to make things easier I guess. Sometimes I feel life is easier to have people just come and go. I think I'll do better on my own. This is just the beginning. After thursday, I don't think I'll ever want to settle down in life. I am curious to see how this trip abroad will change me.
All I know is that I can't wait to get on that plane.
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