Passion. Learning outside of the classroom.

Passion. I hear that word all the time these days. So, naturally, I started thinking about passion. What it means literally, what it means to me. It is the glue that will hold the life I want together. When someone is passionate about something it shows. I'm beginning to wonder where mine went. Well, really my passion shifted from one thing to another. My passion is love. To love and be loved. I don't want to be worried about this new found passion. It's not a new passion, but it is just stronger then ever. The kind of passion that just hurts but feels like an overwhelming happiness that I don't know just how to handle quite yet.

I've been so blinded by fears of not making my dreams a reality, not getting in the right school, not taking the right path, not making the right decisions, when my number one fear is losing happiness and love. Fear of not loving or being loved the way I want to love and be loved.

There is no sense in fighting it. I'm a girl that is in love with love. The things that are meant to happen will happen. They will fall right into place effortlessly. If there is passion and love.

A movie producer came to speak to us the other day and talked to us about passion and being passionate about life and people around you. She barely even talked about what it is to be a movie producer. I'm missing just half of that statement. I'm just in a rut. I've always been the girl that needed change and inspiration. I've actually been talking to a lot of industry people and they all say the same thing about having passion, it's actually incredible.

Lately, I've been missing the feeling I felt playing piano on a stage. I find myself wandering and lingering around the music practice rooms at SFSU all the time.

I can't even express or put into words how happy it makes me feel, how much I love it, when I see that someone is passionate for something. A glow, an aura, emanates from them. A passion ignited by anything, even something so small. Passion for another person, a song, a hobby, a career, anything. I just want to be surrounded by passionate people.